Saturday, June 16, 2012

AS IMMATURITY FADES

Being a senior in a very complicated course requires a lot of time and effort in order to survive, and have either superior or acceptable standings for the future that is yet to come my way.

I have been to a couple of cat fights in the past 3 years while studying in Ateneo, but not to the point of physical contact; apart from spars in Tae Kwon Do, I do not hurt other people for reasons that are way beyond those acceptable, or on the level of attaining such acts.

It was my first week of being a senior, and as I browse my Facebook for status updates and other important news that is meant to be read (and a couple of stalking as well), I have stumbled upon a few people that were posting mean and harmful status and photos that were obviously meant to be read by the people they have their "red dot" on. Oh, I remember the days of being that kind of girl. Very brave online, yet so petite and behaved in person. This may be hard to believe when someone practices martial arts and is 5'7 tall, but yes, I was that kind of girl. Shame on me for being that immature, but I do not regret any actions made because one does not learn by nature alone, but also from mistakes made and regrets felt. This is most definitely the reason of my shift in personalities- slowly, and still under progress.



To be given the relieving chance of waking up another day, I am obliged and have promised myself to live the next days the way I should. No more grudges to those who have hurt me before, no more false accusations and direct judgement to people I did not even get to know well, and a complete halt on all the backstabbing and other actions related to the destruction of trust- these are the goals that are yet to be fulfilled by me, and hopefully the other people who are on the same page as me.

The day after tomorrow, the 18th of June 2012, is the 2nd week of classes, and this is the week where in the professors will actually attend classes and start with the lessons. I am looking forward to all the knowledge that is about to be gained, and those that I already have yet long ago forgotten. This year, 2012, whether or not it is the end of the world, will be different.








I cannot say my immaturity is completely gone, but having the determination to change? Well, that is already a huge change. Agreed?


BONUS VIDEO! DON MOEN singing one of my favorite praise songs, "God Will Make A Way":






God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way

I have been listening to his songs for a long time already, but just recently did I actually feel what the songs really meant. I really do believe that anything is possible with God, and that he never gives us problems we cannot handle.




PHOTO FROM SHELTERINCHRIST.FILES.WORDPRESS.COM


"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." - Philippians 4:13



49 comments:

  1. such a beautiful write-up, trish!
    it's hard to let go of emotional baggage, pero they must be let go eventually din.
    hopefully you'll do well in this senior year. just a few months more. <3

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  2. I believe every problem has it's solution..for God will make a way :D

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  3. For most of the time, I just ignore mean people who says so much when you are not around. I guess if they notice that it won't affect, their aggression is futile. Willingness to change is always a big step.

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    1. It's a great step to take the more mature alternative.

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  4. I guess we've all gone that road.. but it is through that detour where we, as human beings, learn how to adjust -- to adjust in a manner where maturity wins over. Nice piece Trisha.. God bless on your senior year! :)

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    1. Oh, and change maybe constant -- but change is always good, at some point. :)

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  5. i agree to this!!! Well all of us truly do something stupid before but despite all of that we still end up realizing things that we know we should do something about it! there is always a room for change and i believe we don't learn just by way of trying to but also by ways of our own mistakes.enjoy your last yr in college and make the most out of it! Always pray not only for yourself but also for others and also for the less fortunate.

    "if you are too busy to pray, then you are busier than God intended you to be"

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  6. Nice one. I think all of us have this immature dark past. I had one too. And when I look back, I am not proud of the things I have done. But you're right, I have learned from them. And that is the good part.

    Good luck on your studies!

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  7. i feel you! We can do it! Help lang ta each other! Aja! :3

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  8. Just keep moving on. Don't let the negativity control your life. =) .

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  9. Galing. :)

    And you are right, the first step to maturity is to acknowledge that you should grow up. :)

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  10. great realization! "Keep true, never be ashamed of doing right, decide on what you think is right and stick to it." - George Eliot

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  11. Maturity is a sign of growing up. It is good that you are matured already,it makes you more responsible in everything.

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  12. i feel your sentiments sis. being in the last year of college creates more responsibility. it's the start of the year and i am already busy. >.<
    glad that our brains have finally decided to get matured and responsible.

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  13. wow, 5'7.. I envy your height!

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  14. just always think positive and Let God guide you :)
    goodluck,

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  15. The last photo gave me the goosies coz that's what I always tell myself when I'm in pain, sorrow or simply sad. College life means letting go, learning and moving on because the strength and knowledge you will gain from those stages are what you need in the real world when you graduate.

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  16. True indeed!! Anything is possible with God. Once you put him in your heart, problems will go away coz if you are his son HE WILL NEVER LET YOU SUFFER :)

    Enjoy life and have fun coz God only gave one life.

    muaaahhh

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  18. we might have our level of immaturity even in old age, it's how you handle it that makes you above the rest...continue to do what you think is right...

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  19. Immaturity is not based on the age sis. :) It is based on experience. Though for me, no matter how old you get or how much experience you have, immaturity will always be a part of us. :)

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  20. it makes me smile whenever i get to meet or read about individuals embracing change. :-) happy for you sis... it may still be a long way, but yeah realizing the need to change is huge already! :-)

    goodluck on your last year in college, savor it to the highest level... you will miss it once its gone... :-)

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  21. I think our immaturity will never go away, unless we hit the middle-age stage. Because without our immaturity, our life would be boring. I'm the type of girl who would prefer staying quiet when in public, but be quite a lil aggressive online, but I don't really resort to backstabbing people, or make fun of them, because I was not that kind of person. (I was the bullied, so yeah.)
    But if you have faith, and want change, then it is possible to change. :)

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  22. This is a beautiful post Trisha. Stay positive. :)

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  23. there's nothing wrong with being immature. but one day, it will be better to turn immaturity into childlike, which is a more mature form of being childish. LOL - did that make sense? anyway, enjoy your life as a student, because there's nothing like it. make the most of it, kasi when you're in the world of work, you'll put everything you've learned in college into it.
    make as many mistakes as you can, learn from it and grow from it. Trust me, when you've finally learned the lessons in life, you'll appreciate that you made those mistakes. :)

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  24. Aww.

    That is life. :) We all change for the good... kahit may little set backs pa rin, at least..you have improve to the person you are way back. Life is a consistent learning process. We get to a lot of experiences pero ang importante.. lahat yun may lesson. Lahat yun may natutunan ka. :)

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  25. and that's part of growing up! :) and that is LIFE :)

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  26. Its good that you acknowledge what you did wrong. Acceptance is the first step. Kayang kaya mo yan.

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  27. That's true. Having the determination has a very big impact if you really want to change. Thought it may not happen overnight, but your DESIRE to have it will lead you to achieving that change.

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  28. Maturity could be, just a thought in the mind, translated into actions and feelings. The same thing with immaturity. It still lingers there. The difference as you age is how you set it aside and act like how you should.

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  29. Thank you for this very uplifting post. Reading this is a great way to start my day. :)

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  30. Being a Senior entails a lot of responsibilities especially that you need to be a role model to all lower batches after you.

    I see nothing wrong with being immature as long as it only happens once in a blue moon (I think XD).

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  31. You remind me of my younger self..
    When I still tend to be careless.
    My usual faults then because I like talking about what's in my mind,
    I tend to be trackless.
    As I mature, I learned how powerful words are!

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  32. EXPERIENCES cam make or break
    the maturity of a person. If one is exposed
    to hardships and challenges in LIFE... that person
    may mature earlier than others do.

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  33. God will make a way is one of my family's favorite.

    but hey, I don't want to cross path with you..at least when you're angry...just kidding.

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